illicitdeceit

2007-01-26T02:25:00.000+08:00

let the gentle breeze take with it your tears son.
our lives has only just begun.
what you hoped for may not be what you get.
but in a minute or two you'd soon forget.
what you started off with nonetheless.

a simple notion that'll take you away.
that draws the distance each passing day.
a simple language, fools understand.
a quiet whisper, you'd comprehend.
the expression of love, nonetheless.

for chris. and you.

2007-01-11T05:31:00.000+08:00

jon.
you want to be better for someone else.
you see things differently.
you smile yourself to sleep, and wake up with sheer optimism.

its a funny little feeling, nothing like before.

very, very simple, very truly

epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being

I like who I am because of it

2007-01-02T05:04:00.000+08:00

when you say nothing at allllllz.

ok maybe say something.

arh. day started at 4 ended at 10. biggest highlight. best dinner and even better company. great start to 2007. more to come i hope. (:

2006-12-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

if only thoughts could speak.
and words could act.

2006-12-29T03:35:00.000+08:00

why do keep thinking about you?
its not as though you want me to.
every effort i tried, i tried in vain.
but the thought of you eases the pain.

how i wish i could go back in time.
i'd give up every last dime.
to the instance when our love begun.
erase the memories, joy and fun.

our lives continue, rapidly proceeding,
in different directions, slowly distancing.
i wish this is a dream, i'd wake up from someday.
a beautiful make belief that you made real.

sorry for whoever the initial one came from. i just wanted to write something along the same lines that actually meant something to me. yes.

2006-08-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

how do you let loose yet regain your composure?
in our daily pursuits, we're running, yet we do not know where to;
a photobooth discrepancy, the pictures suggest you look bad;
but you think otherwise.
so how many of us would liken our interest to matchsticks;
it burns out after its lighted, well it remains bright when it shines.
love fades; so colour it luscious red occasionally.
roses does the trick, well girls, red ferraris seals the deal.
how do you live life, knowing life starts and ends with nothing. what is the measure of man?
who's behind him, or whats ahead of him?
in the complete randomness this began, it ends.

2006-07-27T20:22:00.000+08:00

And what is love? a masquerade of passion
is it pure madness or even deception
for eternity waits for a moment
when divinity meets divine
what sweetness is it to compare
when forever sealed it's time
some reasoned it as a reckless fusion
shrouded in secrecy and confusion
some lay in the pursuit of love
without a doubt, certainty from above?
well, may you find love

wrote it two valentines ago lols. for some cj lit teacher

2006-07-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

humbly you came into this world you created.

all for love sake became poor.

2006-07-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

And I wake to find that you're not there

okay here's a post before i go study. well no one's gonna read this. did a lil reminiscing today after the car ride with mommy. hmm. yes its a sad sad situation. just so you know it isn't what it appears to be. hope you're fine.

___________________________________

What do I say when it's all over

And sorry seems to be the hardest word

2006-06-30T03:52:00.000+08:00

MAMBO NIGHT
twas fun la.basically theres hand actions for everysong. and i wore a retro outfit so it was super fun!. adrian and all thought so too!

2006-06-12T05:35:00.000+08:00

Break my fall (Redemption)

Break my fall with your hands
Lead me through this dark descent
Hold me close, ignite the spark
Light my way into the dark

Fight it try to hide it
Is anyone to blame
I'm seeking for redemption
For some bad mistakes i made

Fight it try to hide it
Is there a room for change
I'm living for redemption
Could you spare me a little grace

-you'll never fall too hard to get up again,
you'll never have a path too dark

2006-06-04T01:04:00.000+08:00

Be still, and know that i am God.

Psalms 46.10

2006-05-30T01:46:00.000+08:00

you're the aeropostale and abrecrombie girl. harh!

2006-05-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

*as you, I've felt the same

The fearful always preyed upon your confidence.

Did they see the consequence,

when they pushed you around?

The arrogant build kingdoms made of the different ones,

Breaking them 'til they've become just another crown

satellite-

you're a star.
in my constellation.
celestial being.
in no gravitation.

orbiting my world
in oblivion.
of the things that surround,
this devastation.

timeless encounter
ageless definition.
beauty encapsulated.
a sweet disposition.

but you're only a satellite.

2006-05-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

-and did you fall for a shooting star?

You think your days are uneventful
And no one ever thinks about you
She goes her own way
She goes her own way
You think your days are ordinary
And no one ever thinks about you
But we're all the same
And she can hardly breathe without you

she says she has no time,

for you now.

2006-05-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

-oh simple thing where have you gone.

i gave up, threw in the towel, whatever you call it.

we all gotta bow out sometimes?

i admit i can't handle stuff. not everyone is able to?

i just wish happiness wasn't a complex equation.

oh simple where on earth have you gone?.

-and the sky bleeds red tonight.

2006-05-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

Sat by the river and it made me complete.

let go your heart.

2006-05-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

How many special people change?

How many lives are living strange?

Where were you while we were getting high?

i'm just only a while away,
if you had bothered.

what to do what to think what to believe?. its just so hard.

*wipe that tear away now from your eye

the incoherence is a result of absurd randomness. it is for you to draw the continuity and not me to piece it up. coherence is after all only a state of mind.

2006-04-30T19:15:00.000+08:00

so you've done no wrong?

fight it, try to hide it.
is anyone to blame.
i'm seeking for redemption.
could you spare me a little grace?

funny how ppl can live life thinking they're right, ironically they're wrong in thinking so.

get a life.

2006-04-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Crucified
Laid behind the stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

its good friday.Jesus died. he did. i guess we're the people that put him thru such a torment. sadly the things we do are just the very things that mock this very sacrifice. well greatest gift on earth, a very heavy burden indeed.

2006-04-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

the waters getting deeper, move a little closer to shore
i've lost somebody, i can't do with one more
a sweet little being in a vast open ocean
de javu, i've seen it before.

the waters engulf you, as i watched from ashore
two beauties collide, is it death once more
a struggle to breathe, for that moment to live
slowly she fades into the bleak waters of banglalore.

HAHA can't think of an ending.

OI STEFFI SAY LA!

2006-04-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

life.

guided by misconceptions.

fooled by your own illusions.

my trip to melbourne was refreshing, just my brother and i. life for once didn't have any reporting time. Perhaps only for the trip to great ocean road. We walked, oh yes we did, and so did many others, only difference, we were never late. Met people who showed us their guts, the courage to halt the life they worked for, to live the life they longed for. Paperchase, meeting requirements to be happy? we met a guy who was gay, he spoked to us about his job, and how he decided to give it up cause it was wrecking his life.. Lifes a wreck. he gave up his job so that he will not put up with a fucked up 9-5, only to make up for it with drugs on weekends. he'd rather stay broke but be happy, and give up his weekend escapism from reality. aren't we all like that, looking forward to weekends so much cause we can do stuff that provide temporary relieve from our weekday routine. Get your high, lose your senses. are you truly happy?

You don’t know me
But I’m sitting next to you
Every morning
On the bus or on the tube

You look tired
Would it help to hear me say
Don’t you worry
Friday’s not that far away?

On the weekends
We try to get our share
Of excitement and of fresh air
Trying to forget
Who we’re gonna be
When the alarm rings
On monday morning

If in the evening
All you do is watch TV
Cause your too tired for anything else
You’re just like me

Just remember
As you struggle through the day
Relief awaits you
Friday’s not that far away

-weekends - the perishers

STEFFI. SO YOU THINK YOU'RE VERY FUNNY. THREE CHUCKLES FOR YOU! HA HA HA! lol this is amusing. finally know what a shoutout is. girl lingo she says, bullshit i think.

2005-09-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

i swear this is damn funny

for you who do not know who he is.

he's ah boon. or otherwise known as boon.

2005-09-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

just felt like typing something down here. jkhsdfajdhla.
and so i did.

whatever the new day brings. and so its said. i say, the same old shit happens all over again. nothings new. nothing ever changes.

it's me you're dealing with.

fartbrain. here's for you.

And tonight I lack the strength to even move
You walked, and watched me die
But I know this is harder for you
For love has let you down
Yeah come on

And the road ahead is lined with broken dreams
So walk, walk on by
And I fail to give you everything you need
For the fear's behind your eyes

And I can feel you
Not alright
I'm not alright

When I can heal you
Not alright
I'm not alright
I'm not alright

Jesus as you throw me on the rocks
For love, I left your side
For I believe in love and beauty's walls
Where heaven shines from your eyes

And I can feel you
I'm not alright
I'm not alright
I'm not alright

And so tell me there wasn't all for not
Such a waste now, you're such a waste now come on
Cause I know you're scared, but baby don't you hide
It's such a waste
But stand along now, you'll make it somehow

-

alright. that's all folks.

you're such a waste -

but you'll make it somehow.